So the boyf has his applicant/interview day tomorrow for Channel 4.
So exciting.
If he does well he will have a job working for a production company that makes programmes for Channel 4 (obviously)
So fingers crossed, hopefully he will do well, I think he will, he is more than capable of getting the job and he is awesome and has a lot of experience.
Only down side is that the job is in Liverpool which is annoying but we will sort something out.

Seriously just go into a weird trance watching children’s tv.
Peppa Pig, Ben and Holly’s Little Kingdom and this weird Pokoyo thing. I dunno what it’s called, but it’s trippy as.

Been thinking about marriage a lot today.
Also been thinking about how many people get divorced.
Seriously, I’m getting married once. If it doesn’t work out, and if the marriage breaks up I’m not getting re-married. Ever again. I might be with someone but don’t think I’ll wanna re-marry.
Not that I think me and Ashok will break up but you never know what’s going to happen.
I dunno. Random brain thoughts of the day.

I’m going to start knitting again. Found a really nice pattern for a blanket that I wanna try. And seen as though I can’t seem to get a job I have lots of time free to do it. 

Seriously I must of applied for at least 30 different jobs, but I will keep trying anyway. Hopefully I will get one eventually.

I don’t even need a job that much, I have money and everything, and in September I am starting my PGCE, but I just want one to try and build up more savings. Savings wise we’re really good and better off than most people we know. But anything to build it up quicker.

Hopefully I should be able to get a teaching job next year. Everything I have done has been to work towards eventually teaching. And hopefully by then we will have enough savings and both be in full time work so we can get a house :)

Feeling really fed up again at the minute. I kinda just want this summer to go really quickly because I want to get my PGCE over with, I wanna be moved out and have my own place too.

I just want shit to happen for me.

Last night I also applied for loads of jobs. I lost count at how many because it was that much.

Really need to finish off my presentation for tomorrow, my last ever assignment for my university degree ever!
I have zero motivation though. I just don’t want to do it. Plus I’m gonna have to drive back to uni tomorrow. Urgh.
And it’s an all day thing.

Before I got a bit carried away when attacking the boyf and I made his side bleed. Bit of a downside to having long nails. I’m sure I didn’t scratch him THAT hard lol.

I hate wanting something that I can’t have :’(

Urgh. Been too broody today. I hate it.

So the boyf has just gone out to the shop to buy us food so that we stop eating take away and everything we wanted they don’t have. So annoying.

It’s days like today that make me want my own home even more. I’d love to spend the day working in my garden making it look lovely.

I’ve been is such a rubbish mood today.
So fed up with everything again.

Now lets get this essay written so I can hand it in later, chill out and move back home.

Fun birthday or what!!

So because it is my birthday tomorrow I am trying to get as much of this 4000 word essay written as possible tonight so that I can chill out a bit more tomorrow. 

Even though I am aiming to get this essay and other one finished tomorrow so I am going to be in the library for the majority of the afternoon. And I have a meeting in the morning with a tutor about a presentation that I need to write and do.

Too much work to do, really cannot be bothered.

But I want to move home on Thursday so that’s why I am constantly working.